hi. im back to bloggi land.

i havent blogged in a while, mainly because i know no one but me will ever read this. sigh. if you are not me reading this, thanks for proving me wrong. im wrong a lot. about lots of stuff. here is somthing that i wrote about an hour ago, i wanted to just put it down somewhere and my laptop was readily available. here you go.

I don’t know how to feel about him. I mean, K likes him and what are the chances that he likes me that way, if at all? I'm just some stupid little girl with pimples and hair that won’t behave. Would anyone ever like that in a way that is more than just friends? Of course not. k is a beautiful, smart, hardworking girl who likes him back, and they are already friends. If we were to do anything, guess who would know immediately? Everyone, parents included. They would notice the different way we talked, acted together, yada yada. You know, I sort of have to tell people if I were to decide I liked him. If I told E, then she would probably end up blurting it out to everyone at lunch, and then k would know, and how awkward would that be? Yes, it would. Then I would give E some look, and she would just sort of chuckle, and I would profusely deny everything.

e is my best friend, and k is another friend. the boy i was writing about is a family friend, and i go to school with him, and no one knows i like him. nuff said.

so, tomorrow is the last day of my spring break, and easter. im jewish, but i will be celebrating with my catholic cousins. i really really really dont get easter. jesus came back as a zombie, and now we paint eggs for a giant rabbit to hide? what the heck? is it some sort of symbolism? i dont get it, and neither do my catholic, pretty religious cousins. i have a dilema, and if its not me who is reading this, then i need your help. the boy from above (lets call him leo) is a family friend, i really like him in a way that is not family friend-ish, and k likes him to. k has liked him for almost a year, she is trying to get him to like her, and she told me she liked him almost immediately. if i were to tell her now, it would be excruciatingly awkward because of her liking leo also. crap. and our parents are really good friends so we see each other a lot outside of school. we are friends, but we are also both really shy, so neither of us talk much unless some one else brings up a topic we can both talk about. and because of the shy thing, of course we could never tell one another. crap crap crappity crap. so... ttfn, mes amis.