i will triumph, i will conquer.

well, im in a bad mood. my b***h of a mother has yet again made dinner. why cant she just stay out of the kitchen? it seems to be that all my problems stem from her. im constantly hungry because she wont buy food/make anything edible. im bad at math because missy math teacher (mum) and my actual math teacher are to stuck up and idiotic to teach. i feel bad for my mum's students, as well. i have no clothes, because she wont get a washing machine that works. i cant breathe because i must avoid her by being shut up in my room all day long. i cant think because she is constantly pissing me off. i cant be nice to my sister because her house scares me. i cant escape, because i cant figure out the exact turns to get to my house from hers, and im scared of riding my bike on the highway. (this is her fault). i cant stay at my house all week long, because she had to go and get custody of me and my sister. i hate her so horribly much. she is vile and cruel and sickening and i cant find the right words to describe the bitch that makes my life hell.
yet through this, i will survive and thrive. i told you what my story is about, and i will shine my hate through in the form of misa's hate for jared even though she must do some of the things he says because she is currently dependent on him. but not for long, because she has a plan. im not sure how i can channel my emotions into her forgiving him, though. maybe my feelings about e? the friend who you love but cant trust? nah, because she likes jared in a different way. but i do love e, so so much. she helps me get through the wrath of mum. and she supports me silently in every endeavor. thanks, e, for everything you have ever done. you cant imagine how much i depend on you, and those thursdays when i can see you yet again. i love you like harry loves ron, like fred loves george, like max loves lisel, like misa loves chise. i want to talk to you so badly, i need a hug. i need to know you love me too.