two happy-making events!

yay! on my last post i talked about depressing stuff, but not this time! first thing: im going to attempt to co-author a book with fred! she started it, sent it to me to read, i added some stuff to make it better, and now we have a good 19 pages! we are emailing it back and forth, each adding and editing every time we get it back. however, i also am going to try to bring back an idea of mine from awhile ago, and work on that if the fred novel falls through. fred came up with the idea, its about a guy who is immortal and is on this mission for his superiors, who he calls the heads. while studying human nature, he falls for one of the people he is examining and... we haven't gotten to far, but we have the basic plot and some ending ideas. i want the end to be her dying, and him having too choose between immortality and living with his fallen love for eternity, or death. he is a coward, and the epilogue is him choosing death. fred, on the other hand, wants to kill off the narrator, the immortal kid. she thinks we can pull off killing the narrator. i think she's being an idiot. you just cant kill the narrator, unless it is in the very beginning, like the lovely bones. only scenario where the narrator can die. she has consented to changing this ending, but will not kill emma, the girl. she also insists in making them all have no character flaws, which is a sign of weak writing in my opinion. she night consent to him being selfish and cowardly as long as it is directly vital to the plot. now im not as happy, because im reliving the huge argument we had about ending the book. tomorrow we will probably continue... oh well. at least i get to write.

ughh.

i just read k's blog, the one who likes leo, to. this made me depressed in two ways.
1: she thinks that they are getting closer. for her sake, i hope its true, but for mine. well i really dont know what i want or what i think.
2: she shares this blog with another friend ( her name is now fred.)and those to are absolute opposites in every way. go to sumandwin.blogspot.com if you dont believe me, just read the side bar. k is logical, smart, and clever whereas fred is confusing, artistic, and determined. sometimes. so this makes me depressed because i have no opposite. i dont know who i am, what im like, what i like, i dont have any hobbies, i keep to myself, the things i used to like are ever slowly dripping away from me... and i like to write. but of course, im not open about it because im not open about anything. i ball up my emotions and hide them away where they cant be seen and then fake my life. everything i do at school is fake and stupid. even e, my best friend, dosent know i write anything, and she is the closest anyone has ever gotten to me. that said, she barely knows me, which is #3. my best friend in the world is someone who i cant open up to. those life is good shirts are wrong. life is too hectic and emotional and confusing to ever be just plain good. the world dosent work that way, and neither do i. i need a shirt that says 'life is to darn confusing to describe on a tee-shirt'. will some one make that for me?

greetings to the web.

hello, i just wrote a letter! well, i typed it. and emailed it. and it was long. i think ill put it here, just for the heck of it. i mean, no one reads this anyways. warning: if you have not read the entire HJP series, dont read this. (i hope you can guess who this is to now...hint, she's famous. you'd have to be completely cut off from all media other than my blog not to recognize who it is. and the recipient is...)

Ms. Rowling,

I’m guessing that you have gotten trillions of emails from fans, and that you cannot respond. Even a generic response would be welcome, however. I am a huge fan of yours and of your books, and I am an aspiring author. I would like some clarification, though. In deathly hallows, when Ron runs into the snatchers, his wand is grabbed, but then he stuns a snatcher and grabs his wand. He then leaves, and somehow has both his and another wand. What happened there? the first time I read your book, I read and reread this passage several times, and after I bought the audio book I listened to it to see if Jim Dale could put an emphasis on something that I had not picked up on. However, he read it the same way I did. What was happening there? And in case you were wondering, the only other fault I could find was on your website. I think Lily Luna is a ridiculous name. I kind of feel bad for her, or I would if her character was more developed like Harry. He is one of my best friends.
You are an amazing, and highly talented writer, do you have any tips? Many of my friends believe I should become an editor (and I have edited some short stories non-professionally) but I would like to create my own worlds, as you have done. My reading career started when I switched from single chapter paperbacks to harry potter in kindergarten, and you have inspired me to become an author. I would cherish anything you can give to me, whether it is advice on where to write or what to eat before writing. I don’t care, anything will do. If I can make a reader cry the way I did when Harry marched to his death, then it is a success.
I love your works, your website and your plot, which absolutely shocked me. I truly believed that harry would die trying to defeat Voldemort (neither can live) and then Neville would finish him off (while the other survives). Snape’s love made me cry, along with the death of, but not limited to: Cedric (when his parents talk to Harry), Sirius (Lupin holding harry back was devastating), Dumbledore (the 'im not scared, I’m with you' had me bawling, and as soon as I was ready to pick the book up again, Albus died. that really wasn’t fair), Hedwig, Hagrid (I know he didn’t die, but when there was the possibility, I was terrified. Hagrid and Snape are the best characters, I really love them), mad-eye, Pettigrew, Fred (I felt so horrible for George, and the scene where the Weasley's are around him didn’t help), Remus and Tonks (again, I felt sorry for Teddy, and then I saw the connection between Harry and Sirius, which reassured my belief that Harry would die), Colin (just a little weepy, maybe an aftermath of you making me bawl?) and then I burst into tears when Harry was walking to his death. I actually dropped the book when he saw Ginny and Neville, it was impossibly sad. Of course, I need to add that I do not cry. I had not cried over anyone until Cedric died, and I was shocked that I cried then. Your characters are more real to me than some of my real family, which I can promise to you.
Thank you so much for both reading my letter, writing your series and thanks in advance for replying with that advice.

Your always loyal reader,
Maia Silver

PS. I heard on mugglenet that you are working on something not Potter related. Can you confirm this? and possibly give me a rough date of the publishing? If I could, I would have the “not too distant future” marked on my calendar. I truly wish I could have been at the white house this Easter, I might’ve died. Thank you again, and let me say very quickly that the tales of beetle the bard were wonderful. I liked ‘the fountain of fair fortune’ the best. And it teaches a good lesson, which I'm sure is a good quality in a children’s book. I hold this story in higher esteem than many books I’ve read. Thank you so much for reading my ramblings. Enjoy writing anything new that may be coming, I can’t wait to read it.

PS. Again: are there any books you’ve read that you really enjoyed? I need something new to read, and you are famous when it comes to books. Thank you profusely.


and that was my letter. as you can guess, it took a long time to write. longer than i would have liked, but still. if she reads it, its worth it. ttfn!