dear basil,
Can you ever possibly fathom the emotional power you held over Strawberry for years? You were a cruel, heartless manpulator, and you held her heart on strings. But know that she was no marionette. She did, does feel. She never was yours to toy with, and you never deserved her affection, or even her partiality. She has eyes, and she could see the ridiculing sneers you cast in her direction. She has ears, and she could hear your snide remarks. What are your eyes but items of unjust judgement. They see only skin-deep; they are not capable of seeing what lies beneath. I know that with your miniscule brain and limited imagination you think I mean her organs, but I am speaking of the passionate and brilliant writer and thinker that lies beneath. Your heart pumps blood like everyone else's, but it lacks the spark that enables kindness and this foreign and alien concept that we call love. Your brain has placed you in a math class two grades more advanced than your own, but you only see things for what they very bluntly are, not what they could become. You think you're the greatest, smartest being on the face of the Earth, but you cannot think outside of the box. Hell, you're so in the box that you must've been born in a UPS store. Don't think unkindly of her if you ever do see this letter, which I doubt because I have no intention of ever giving it to you. These are my thoughts and opinions, and if you think that thhis gives you the right to loathe me as much as you abhor her, then go right ahead. But please, cut loose her puppet strings. Just let her go.
well, kim, im not basils biggest fan. but you must be as short sighted, arrogant, unfeeling and ignorant as you make him out to be if you actually believe this. basil is a feeling, thinking being as well and you just must know that he doesnt give a damn about her. he wasnt tethering her like a puppet as you make him out to be, he was in no way her puppeteer. she liked him an awful lot, and remember it was you that ended up telling him of her affections. but her liking him was sleepys own fault, maybe you should try blaming her for all of this. how could he see past her face and friends if she was too infatuated to approach him? he couldnt get to know her, and if his friends laughed at her then how could he not? you know what peer pressure is and what it does, and he more than most has a reputation to hold up. the class clown that he is has to entertain everyone, and what better way then through the seemingly love struck outcast of a girl who would do anything to please him? basil, let me say what you did was wrong. but kim, you are not any more blameless than him, or me. as i recall, you have hurt her a lot more than him. do you think your teasing is just friendly banter to her? i know for a fact that simple jokes like yours and mine can burn for days, years, a lifetime. i remember when i was hated by everyone around me, and it hurt. i know im not blameless. i resent that. but again, we all have our reputations however small. im going to start fresh next year, and maybe basil is too. but i hope for your sake you recognize how wrong you are, and i hope also that this was for your reputation, because my first friend after two full years of spite and lonely hate wasnt such a cowardly judge.
sleepy: i know your new hate for basil is real, and you can blame me for everything ive done and every hypocritical thing ive just said, but i cant tell if your approval of kims letter is because you actually believe shes right, or because you are so blinded by her sudden support, or just the fact that she called you smart for once. but let me assure you that that coward is wrong to blame him for so much. yes, he hurt you. yes, he was cruel to you. but so is she, and one letter cant change the fact that he deserves a voice as much as heather and sara do. those girls you hate so much that are probably aching for a friend. i may not like them, but i can at least guarantee that they have me as a friend, which you and kim so blatantly refuse to give them. i doubt either of you have ever been really hated by so many people, especially you, kim. i truly hope that sleepy, kim and basil read this. i may be an outcast yet again, but i know that if you all hate me, i can join heather and sara, who are truly nice and caring girls. hey, maybe dana and nat will support me as well. they, at least, i can call my friends.
one last thing, kim: yes, basil isnt that creative, but incapable of love? the thing that makes us us? im guessing you havent seen his devotion to paula, who treats him the way he treats sleepy. paula is a very nice girl, but i dont see you writing hate letters to her or feeling sorry for basil.
this is the very last thing, addressed to everyone: dont call me a cowardly hypocrite, i already know i am.
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