Thursday, 19 August 2010
this is the end
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Labels: goodbye
Wednesday, 23 June 2010
goodbye
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Labels: camp
Monday, 21 June 2010
first blogging, then biking.
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Sunday, 20 June 2010
kim posted this on her blog, i just have to reply.
dear basil,
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not a lick...
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Thursday, 17 June 2010
yes, i know i swore to keep up myth.
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Tuesday, 15 June 2010
O M toystory!
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Monday, 14 June 2010
60th post, and a long weekend.
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Thursday, 10 June 2010
to have a family
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Wednesday, 9 June 2010
six flags, land of enchantment.
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Labels: mum
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
its late. for a very important date?
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im moving on. finaly.
well, todays the day. i am hereby moving all aspects of leo and card to another blog, so that they can be isolated. love4cherries.blogspot.com. but, to blogging.
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Labels: leo
Monday, 7 June 2010
shrek
I just wish Ramah was a bit cleaner.
The pool hates my hair, too much for a comb.
Though it’s better than here watching Dreamer,
Toilets clog almost every day here.
No one is quite sure what is in the meals.
Poo is left like a gift by all the deer.
Really wish I could get a better deal.
Maybe a camp without the horrid smell?
Maybe if the mold wasn’t here to stay?
Though they gave me the flu, the nurses mean well.
It’s where my friends are, but is there a way
For me to stay at Ramah with my friends
And eradicate the stench that never ends?
im sure you love it. im not saying i do, cause i dont, but ah well. i think i have to read it aloud in class tomorrow. fun.
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Saturday, 5 June 2010
oh, hell
kim asked leo to the dance on a dare. he said yes. shit.
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Friday, 4 June 2010
the birds in my tree
have you ever stayed up until 2am and listened to the birds? the make some pretty funky noises late at night. or early morning. im really tired. i think i'll stay up for another few hours.
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Labels: birds
well, today stunk.
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Thursday, 3 June 2010
no news is depressing news.
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Wednesday, 2 June 2010
camp smells
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Tuesday, 1 June 2010
im such an idiot.
1. i have no life
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fruit
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Labels: fruit, lolo, rock climbing
june, month of fruit.
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Labels: harry potter, june, labels, summer, writing
Monday, 31 May 2010
i wrote this all a while ago.
She won’t leave me alone. I show her that I hate her, that I won’t ever love her. But she just. Wont. Go.
I am trapped inside a never ending circle of death. All people die, and it is not a sad thing, but when you yourself are dying every day and every hour and every second of every moment, it is truly sad. Some people do not realize this, or can’t comprehend. The person who thought, erased, edited, changed is gone. She spent her entire life on that one word, of that one moment in time, trapped forever by this page. How simple, some might think, to click the little x and watch the lives of hundreds of people be forever erased. How hopelessly complex, terribly sad. I remember the girl who made the mistakes, and the girl who fixed them. They were in the same bed in the same position under these same sheets. It will never be me who paused, never me who had those great ideas. I envy those who have a mindset different from mine. Those who aren’t just them, but have names, and a purpose, and never realize that for the trillions and trillions of deaths that they have, only one is noticed by anyone other than me. How cruel, that I must be the one to notice them, watch them die, and remember every detail of it. Yet there is no escape. If I was to put an end to it, to have my final death, the last one and to some the only one, there would be no escape. I would be nothing, and that is so much worse than to die. The one thing that stops me from cutting my own throat is the thought of nothing. So immeasurably upsetting that it will make me lower my knife. I live through these thoughts, and so did Mira, who dies always.
Tears are the cleanser of the mind. Cry to block all else out, watch another cry to dispose of your anger.
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Sunday, 30 May 2010
blog.
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Saturday, 29 May 2010
third post, and counting.
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yes, i know i just posted.
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letter to kim, somewhat.
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Wednesday, 26 May 2010
some folks may be a little bit smarter than i am. bigger and stronger, too.
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Tuesday, 25 May 2010
hello world.
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Monday, 24 May 2010
livejournal woes.
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Sunday, 23 May 2010
kill me now. right. now.
i am so incredibly screwed. i posted my last post on the blog reserved for my school friends. here is what i posted there:
First, my thoughts. I could feel every tear running down my face. I can’t describe the horror of having to talk about everything. She didn’t let me leave. But the tears ran freely.
When I was there, I felt this… this thing. I can’t describe it. But I could feel that there was love between them, and it was so open, so beautiful. They loved each other. They do still. And, for a brief moment, I remembered what it was like to have a place where there is love. A place where you can be happy, and be taken care of by those who love each other. I have never had that, really. There have been illusions. Camp, their home. Shul. Mainly camp. There is just an aura of ‘we love each other’. It sounds cheesy, but it’s there. I know it.
That is what I felt with Ilana. It was beautiful, and wonderful. I want to have that. I would give anything- everything. Just to have that. I hate this trapped feeling. I can’t escape it.
When I was sitting there. Just sitting there. I felt this surge of love to Ilana, coming from her mother. I felt a sharp pain in my chest, and then empty. I could feel the hole beating, pumping like a heart. But it was empty. I cried, because I knew what would fill that hole was right in front of me. I wanted what they had. I wanted someone to be caring towards me. Forever.
I had forgotten what family meant, and I know that buried in the deepest folds of my subconscious that I will never, ever have what they have. But I will have something, oh yes. I will have myself, balled up and hidden alongside my secret knowledge. I will never be accepted into another’s family, and I will never have the pure willpower to create my own. I will live, die, sleep. Alone. I will always be alone.
lovely, isnt it? i wrote that on word just before i logged on. i spent the weekend at ilanas house, came home, and had a nice long chat with my mum about my depression. i had to, and then i had to go back and rewrite it so that it would be legible. i wrote it while sobbing hysterically.
so, now i will talk about right now. ruthy i think is the only one that read the other entry before i deleted it. i hope so. she actually approached me and asked about it, i told her i had no idea what she was talking about. i thought i had put it on this blog, and she would be mighty pissed if she had found this one, so i forgot about it. until now, when i checked that blog.
but, im not going to carry out the idea i was posting about then. while i came up with some awesome names, that isnt enough. im going to write something containing ava, a young girl who has no one but this one friend, who has a loving family. i think the friend will be poppy. and it will be written by mira ann dowe herself! yes, mira will imerge from the depths of me and rise to be the writer she can become! i have faith in you, mira. you can do this if you set your mind to it.
mira, by the way, im putting my life in your hands. do the right thing and write a book.
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Tuesday, 18 May 2010
let me melt away
“Just listen. I glance around the room, and my eyes fall on Sarah. Light, flighty Sarah. Best friend of my best friend. Ilana had told me that we were her two closest friends. How could she deal with the deaths of her two closest friends? I think I know who is going to live today.
“I know who will go. Now, please, don’t interrupt. If you will just listen-“but the crowd rises above me. Together, united for the first time against a common goal. Me.
“No! Please, I'm trying to help…” the crowd pushes me down, suffocating me. Scream after scream pummel my ears. I try to close my mouth, but sweaty, frightened bodies are pouring in on me. Clogging me. Stopping me. An ear breaking shriek and I leap up. Or, at least, try to. My nails are cutting into any flesh I can grab hold of. I try to locate Sarah, she has to live. For Ilanas sake. I cry out to her, in the midst of skin and naked flesh.
“SARAH! HELP… ILANA!” I lock onto her eyes; try to force her to understand. Why can’t she run? Save herself? She runs into the throng of people, and straight at me. She must have misunderstood. I feel an even tighter feeling than the mass of bodies, wrapping long slender fingers around my neck. I feel nails on my chin. I try to speak, but she has cut off my air. I can’t breathe, I can’t see, I can’t hear… all my senses are overcome by Sarah. Is this what it is to die? To be cut off from my rain, my cold, my clarity? My friends? I can’t feel the answer, but I can feel the sweaty bodies rising off me. No… they are still. It is my sinking that I feel. Sinking down, in a simple pine tree… but it is not a pine tree. This tree is dead. And the smooth feeling is encasing me, and I join my pine. Locked away from Sarah, simply floating on the waves.
this is only part of it. there was this whole senario... but its about 3 pages long on word. so, i bid you farewell on this light, flighty day.
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Sunday, 16 May 2010
But whilst I sleep, I ponder
I shall be gone and I shall sleep beneath your toes. But whilst I sleep, I ponder-
shall my sacrifice be for naught?
part of something i am writing... but what? i shall not tell you. its from the fish story. (alina, issac and there is now a complicated half formulated love pentagon-ish.) and thats pretty much it. i dont feel like blogging, much.
today while riding my bike, i got this feeling of weakness. not phisically, but like i couldnt find the strength to get back up. it was scary. im going to go now, bloggies. have fun, be safe, stay away from scary people... ttfn.
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Saturday, 15 May 2010
i am highly amused.
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shul
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Tuesday, 11 May 2010
schizophrenic. you can spell it too.
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Saturday, 8 May 2010
ahhhhhh.
ugh. today was really a good day. i had a nice time at shul, and then i had a good lunch. blah blah, went to a waterpark, blah blah. fred (who is now sleepy) k, leo, shard and monkey were there. monkey asked shard to the dance, which was great. and then k, who likes tleo possibly as much as i do, told me that she was going to tell leo to ask me to the dance. i mean, she is a really nice person, but WHY??? i really need to figure this out. i doubt it was out of the goodness of her heart. i highly doubt that. no offense to k, but she is a scheme-er, and she will have a reason. she most likely wants leo to ask her, so why tell me she is planing on telling leo to ask me? it just dosent make sense. however, lets make this clear: i would die of happiness if leo actually asked me. really. im going anyway, but it would just be so wonderful if he were to ask me.
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Sunday, 2 May 2010
Alina, queen of the lonely
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Saturday, 1 May 2010
yes, i know.
while i only posted a few hours ago, i just need to say this:
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xkcd
is an awesome site. alot of computer terms im not familiar with, but the others are funny. this is an online comic site, by the way. xkcd.com. its awesome, and this is not advertising, because no one reads my blog anyways.
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Tuesday, 27 April 2010
i need a hobbie. other than words.
yes, i type up my story. yes, i read. yes, i listen to audiobooks. yes, i go to school. no, there is nothing else in my life. besides you of course, my bloggie buddy. and e. and stalker boy. did i rant about him on my blog yet? i dont think i did, so here goes:
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Monday, 26 April 2010
the smell of bleeding grass
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Sunday, 25 April 2010
ok. im going to do this.
Their feet echoed, loud and ominous, as the timorous duo set off down the stark white hall. The tiny black book was clutched in her hand. She could feel the blood pumping through her hands. He followed, a short distance behind her. Two sets of eyes darted back and forth, like and undying pendulum. Look to the left. Step. Step. Look to the right. Step. Step. She shuddered. Why couldn’t she have stayed in her nice, placid area? A set of giant, heavy shapes blossomed into view ahead. Every angle sharp and focused, just like everything she had ever seen. The flat, dependable floors and walls surrounding her. The only uncertainty in her life had been him. They unreachable boy. And now, even the uncertainty had been altered. He was there. She had felt him brush against her arm moments after the collapse. The rectangles were there, within reaching distance. He was now level with her, both starring at the door. She noted his height. He was taller than she. This puzzled her, more than the shape was. After all, that was just a few lines. He reached out, and laid a hand on the expanse of white. It creaked. They both gasped, but not at the noise. Something, something completely unknown and unfamiliar shone through. It sparkled and glistened, and mesmerized them. There was nothing to break the silence except this. She reached out to touch it, to ensure that it was real. She hesitated before touching it. Could it harm her? Gradually, bit by bit, her hand extended. The barest tip of her middle finger brushed the substance. She was prepared to pull back, but it was so… warm. This picture was changing the color of her hand, and dancing atop her palms. When he was sure that it was doing no damage to her, he reached his hands out, too. Miscalculating the distance, his fingers nudged the wall, and more of it leaked out. There was now a visible gap in the wall. Wearily, she pushed her littlest finger into the gap. She could feel the ice cold stiffness of the lines, and a contrasting soft of the unknown. The finger had disappeared behind the lines. So, there must be something back there to touch? She pulled the finger back towards her, and the lines came with. He gasped, and leapt back. A wonderland greeted them.
Clad in white tunics, a couple treaded from the hard white marble hall to the softly stirring green. They were both shocked at the touch of it. Bare footed fellows stepped through the lines that had held them their entire lives. He immediately stopped to warm himself in the glow emanating from what seemed to be everything, but she walked on. The sky was a vast, immense iron grey. The trees that surrounded everything were glowing a vivid green. The color sparked something inside her. Birds sung and dived as she flung out her arms to greet the first day.
thats when they are leaving the container. the black book is a journal that she had been keeping. well, goodbye. im going to go type somthing, and reread my advice. i didnt finish reading it, i just copied it onto a microsoft document to read later. theres probably 6 pages? some from laini taylor and some from kristin cashore. ttfn, mes amis.
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Wednesday, 21 April 2010
i think i lost me
well well well, wasnt today a fiasco? my mum didnt wake me up, then my alarm didnt go off... guess who woke up to "WHERE ARE YOU?!?! YOU BETTER BE HERE!!". and after waking up to screams at 11:30, guess who skipped breakfast and lunch? then i managed to miss the two better classes. and i havent written at all today, but i do have a new 'laptop curfew' as if that will change anything at all. i have half an hour, not enough time to write anything substantial, and im also having second thoughts on the story im writing. but i did have another idea... two people in some situation where they couldnt talk to each other, or anyone, but they could see each other and sort of communicate. and i bet you'll never guess where i got the idea. fish. my sister has two fish in different bowls, and i was thinking to myself, what are they like? do the interact at all? this is also where (im guessing) the author of 'cloudy with a chance of meatballs' got his idea. the original book, mind you. i mean, food falling from the sky? on a schedule? providing all food sources? it just screams fish food. what does juxtapose mean? ttfn, writing buddies. and dont steal my idea, i really like this one.
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Monday, 19 April 2010
this can be done
i just read my last post. i was kinda pissed off, dont you think? but now im not. come to think of it, i cant really tell what mood im in. and im not curious about what mod im in. is that bad? so anyways, i started the actual writing of my novel-to-be, and its not bad. and i think i will use a nom de plume if i get published. my name is just kind of un-author-ish. i was thinking somthing along the lines of Mira Ann Dowe. on the book it would be written as Mira A. Dowe. Maybe, i dont know. the W is silent, so its pronounced like doe the deer. Mira will be an author extraordinare who loves her two jobs (writing and a psychologist) but hates publicity and is a bit of a hermit. she is a great skier, and she has a husband, 4 year old kid, and happy dog. mira is more or less who i want to be in 10 years, give or take. more like 15. yes, mira ann dowe and her thrilling books that are always on the top shelf because clever me chose a pen name with an early first initial. speaking of initials, hers are MAD. oh yeah, and she'll live in boston. or a big stone house in vermont.
now that i have described my dream girl, (do NOT steal that name. i did a lot of research on various sites claiming no one has that name, dont screw it up for me. and now... found a song i like. im not sure if it is making fun of teens everywhere or supporting them, but i like it. im thinking it depends on your mood, age and overall life. for example i found it after my last entry, and definately could relate. but now... the basice point of the song is to say that i have suffered and no one can compare to what im going through. maybe they knew it would be an aide to teens everywhere. and the song is... welcome to my life by simple plan. the music and lyrics flow really nicely, and the main singers voice isnt too shabby. ttfn, bloggies
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Sunday, 18 April 2010
i will triumph, i will conquer.
well, im in a bad mood. my b***h of a mother has yet again made dinner. why cant she just stay out of the kitchen? it seems to be that all my problems stem from her. im constantly hungry because she wont buy food/make anything edible. im bad at math because missy math teacher (mum) and my actual math teacher are to stuck up and idiotic to teach. i feel bad for my mum's students, as well. i have no clothes, because she wont get a washing machine that works. i cant breathe because i must avoid her by being shut up in my room all day long. i cant think because she is constantly pissing me off. i cant be nice to my sister because her house scares me. i cant escape, because i cant figure out the exact turns to get to my house from hers, and im scared of riding my bike on the highway. (this is her fault). i cant stay at my house all week long, because she had to go and get custody of me and my sister. i hate her so horribly much. she is vile and cruel and sickening and i cant find the right words to describe the bitch that makes my life hell.
yet through this, i will survive and thrive. i told you what my story is about, and i will shine my hate through in the form of misa's hate for jared even though she must do some of the things he says because she is currently dependent on him. but not for long, because she has a plan. im not sure how i can channel my emotions into her forgiving him, though. maybe my feelings about e? the friend who you love but cant trust? nah, because she likes jared in a different way. but i do love e, so so much. she helps me get through the wrath of mum. and she supports me silently in every endeavor. thanks, e, for everything you have ever done. you cant imagine how much i depend on you, and those thursdays when i can see you yet again. i love you like harry loves ron, like fred loves george, like max loves lisel, like misa loves chise. i want to talk to you so badly, i need a hug. i need to know you love me too.
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Saturday, 17 April 2010
attention span of a goldfish, i kid you not
well, fred wants to abandon the would-have-been novel. her attention span could not have been any more than that of the animal with a 4 second memory span. i dont want to complete it alone because it was her story and she'd be pissed, and also i would probably restart the entire thing if it was mine alone. change the names and narrator, definitely. i couldnt write a book in first person from the perspective of someone i cant relate to. i think fred can relate to emma, but not uglyname (i refuse to say the name she picked for the main character, its horrible). and since uglyname is narrating... i dont know. i didnt really think we could finish it anyways, but it was worth a shot. i did really like uglyface's character, even though the plot would have to be pretty similar to get the qualities that i like in him to show, if i were to use him again. that said, im going to tell you about the idea im currently working on.
a girl whose only true friend is her sister witnesses her (the sisters) death, and chases down the murderer, only to find that he was lied to and told that she committed some crime against him in the future, and he went back in time to prevent it. he now has to take her along, because she knows he is from the future (only 8 years, though). they face some trials that i will not reveal, and face a devastating ending that i have not decided on. there are many options, but i have never been one for happy endings. a harry potter end is what im aiming for, (overall they have won, but with heavy casualties and despair) because a 'perfect' ending is corny and boring, but a tragedy and loss of the main goal is just annoying. JKR got it right, unlike most authors. i hope i follow and get it right, as well.
and dont steal my ideas.
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Sunday, 11 April 2010
i congratulate myself.
well, i did it. last night i had a sleepover with k and fred, and i told them i like leo. k and i had a big heart-to-heart talk. it was great, and i sort vaguely mentioned that i like writing, and that i am working on something other than the book im co-authoring with fred, but it was so brief neither caught on. however, i also have i new favorite song. its a great friendship story, called goodbye, earl by the dixie chicks. it seems like its not about friendship, but it really is. its also about murder, but mostly friendship. i still haven't told e anything, mostly because shes not that great of a confident. ttfn, bloggies.
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Friday, 9 April 2010
two happy-making events!
yay! on my last post i talked about depressing stuff, but not this time! first thing: im going to attempt to co-author a book with fred! she started it, sent it to me to read, i added some stuff to make it better, and now we have a good 19 pages! we are emailing it back and forth, each adding and editing every time we get it back. however, i also am going to try to bring back an idea of mine from awhile ago, and work on that if the fred novel falls through. fred came up with the idea, its about a guy who is immortal and is on this mission for his superiors, who he calls the heads. while studying human nature, he falls for one of the people he is examining and... we haven't gotten to far, but we have the basic plot and some ending ideas. i want the end to be her dying, and him having too choose between immortality and living with his fallen love for eternity, or death. he is a coward, and the epilogue is him choosing death. fred, on the other hand, wants to kill off the narrator, the immortal kid. she thinks we can pull off killing the narrator. i think she's being an idiot. you just cant kill the narrator, unless it is in the very beginning, like the lovely bones. only scenario where the narrator can die. she has consented to changing this ending, but will not kill emma, the girl. she also insists in making them all have no character flaws, which is a sign of weak writing in my opinion. she night consent to him being selfish and cowardly as long as it is directly vital to the plot. now im not as happy, because im reliving the huge argument we had about ending the book. tomorrow we will probably continue... oh well. at least i get to write.
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Wednesday, 7 April 2010
ughh.
i just read k's blog, the one who likes leo, to. this made me depressed in two ways.
1: she thinks that they are getting closer. for her sake, i hope its true, but for mine. well i really dont know what i want or what i think.
2: she shares this blog with another friend ( her name is now fred.)and those to are absolute opposites in every way. go to sumandwin.blogspot.com if you dont believe me, just read the side bar. k is logical, smart, and clever whereas fred is confusing, artistic, and determined. sometimes. so this makes me depressed because i have no opposite. i dont know who i am, what im like, what i like, i dont have any hobbies, i keep to myself, the things i used to like are ever slowly dripping away from me... and i like to write. but of course, im not open about it because im not open about anything. i ball up my emotions and hide them away where they cant be seen and then fake my life. everything i do at school is fake and stupid. even e, my best friend, dosent know i write anything, and she is the closest anyone has ever gotten to me. that said, she barely knows me, which is #3. my best friend in the world is someone who i cant open up to. those life is good shirts are wrong. life is too hectic and emotional and confusing to ever be just plain good. the world dosent work that way, and neither do i. i need a shirt that says 'life is to darn confusing to describe on a tee-shirt'. will some one make that for me?
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Monday, 5 April 2010
greetings to the web.
hello, i just wrote a letter! well, i typed it. and emailed it. and it was long. i think ill put it here, just for the heck of it. i mean, no one reads this anyways. warning: if you have not read the entire HJP series, dont read this. (i hope you can guess who this is to now...hint, she's famous. you'd have to be completely cut off from all media other than my blog not to recognize who it is. and the recipient is...)
Ms. Rowling,
I’m guessing that you have gotten trillions of emails from fans, and that you cannot respond. Even a generic response would be welcome, however. I am a huge fan of yours and of your books, and I am an aspiring author. I would like some clarification, though. In deathly hallows, when Ron runs into the snatchers, his wand is grabbed, but then he stuns a snatcher and grabs his wand. He then leaves, and somehow has both his and another wand. What happened there? the first time I read your book, I read and reread this passage several times, and after I bought the audio book I listened to it to see if Jim Dale could put an emphasis on something that I had not picked up on. However, he read it the same way I did. What was happening there? And in case you were wondering, the only other fault I could find was on your website. I think Lily Luna is a ridiculous name. I kind of feel bad for her, or I would if her character was more developed like Harry. He is one of my best friends.
You are an amazing, and highly talented writer, do you have any tips? Many of my friends believe I should become an editor (and I have edited some short stories non-professionally) but I would like to create my own worlds, as you have done. My reading career started when I switched from single chapter paperbacks to harry potter in kindergarten, and you have inspired me to become an author. I would cherish anything you can give to me, whether it is advice on where to write or what to eat before writing. I don’t care, anything will do. If I can make a reader cry the way I did when Harry marched to his death, then it is a success.
I love your works, your website and your plot, which absolutely shocked me. I truly believed that harry would die trying to defeat Voldemort (neither can live) and then Neville would finish him off (while the other survives). Snape’s love made me cry, along with the death of, but not limited to: Cedric (when his parents talk to Harry), Sirius (Lupin holding harry back was devastating), Dumbledore (the 'im not scared, I’m with you' had me bawling, and as soon as I was ready to pick the book up again, Albus died. that really wasn’t fair), Hedwig, Hagrid (I know he didn’t die, but when there was the possibility, I was terrified. Hagrid and Snape are the best characters, I really love them), mad-eye, Pettigrew, Fred (I felt so horrible for George, and the scene where the Weasley's are around him didn’t help), Remus and Tonks (again, I felt sorry for Teddy, and then I saw the connection between Harry and Sirius, which reassured my belief that Harry would die), Colin (just a little weepy, maybe an aftermath of you making me bawl?) and then I burst into tears when Harry was walking to his death. I actually dropped the book when he saw Ginny and Neville, it was impossibly sad. Of course, I need to add that I do not cry. I had not cried over anyone until Cedric died, and I was shocked that I cried then. Your characters are more real to me than some of my real family, which I can promise to you.
Thank you so much for both reading my letter, writing your series and thanks in advance for replying with that advice.
Your always loyal reader,
Maia Silver
PS. I heard on mugglenet that you are working on something not Potter related. Can you confirm this? and possibly give me a rough date of the publishing? If I could, I would have the “not too distant future” marked on my calendar. I truly wish I could have been at the white house this Easter, I might’ve died. Thank you again, and let me say very quickly that the tales of beetle the bard were wonderful. I liked ‘the fountain of fair fortune’ the best. And it teaches a good lesson, which I'm sure is a good quality in a children’s book. I hold this story in higher esteem than many books I’ve read. Thank you so much for reading my ramblings. Enjoy writing anything new that may be coming, I can’t wait to read it.
PS. Again: are there any books you’ve read that you really enjoyed? I need something new to read, and you are famous when it comes to books. Thank you profusely.
and that was my letter. as you can guess, it took a long time to write. longer than i would have liked, but still. if she reads it, its worth it. ttfn!
Posted by mira ann dowe at Monday, April 05, 2010 0 comments